What I Fear Most

Shayla Bobala

My struggle with insomnia and BPD and MDD has led me to have many fears beyond the norm. I fear judgment at grocery stores, I fear spiders, I fear losing loved ones and I fear not being able to say goodbye. But my major fear is not dying myself but it would have to be being abandoned and basically being numbed my medication. BPD stands for Borderline Personality Disorder and MDD stands for Major Depressive Disorder. These to conditions make it impossible for me to stay energized as they exhaust me and they also make it impossible for me to have a normal sleep schedule. I struggle with binge eating to and have had 25 suicide fantasies and 5 attempts. It can be hard to talk about. Being abandoned when I was 4,5 and then when I was in boarding school at 16, then graduated and barely anyone visits me. Also when I finished two years of university and then none of my family would help me finish my degree. I was a foster kid because my mom and dad abandoned me and did not take responsibility. My brother and sister believed my mothers lies and they also abandoned me as an adult shortly after buying my home. After buying my home I lost everyone in my family except my grandma out of jealousy and resentment. So 3 years of struggles later and I sold it. My grandparents bought it and they chose to hold onto it to hold over my head. They thought my life was good enough and I shouldn’t want more. I think owning a home is never worth more than being unique and doing something rewarding in your life. Your value doesn’t come from what you own It comes from who you are on a character level not a fake face Learn this fast because I promise you will be empty if you expect things to make you feel better. Invest into your future that’s more important. Never stay still Truly Shaylabobala

Relationship Advice

Shayla Bobala

Throughout my years of experience of being in several long term relationships of 1,2,3 years. I have gained knowledge on many things. I learned that your first love in highschool doesn’t always workout. I’ve learned that if you date someone older they can help teach you important life skills. I learned that you shouldn’t always put so much pressure on things working out forever. Some people are only around for a season. I learned that if you are broken, like I was coming from foster care that you can’t be with someone with a normal family because they won’t understand your struggles. I have dated younger, older, my age and men who were just there through a hard time in my life. I also learned that love is temporary in some people’s life and they give the love they receive from there most important people in their life. I learned that true love is patient, persistent and most important loyal. I dated a guy once who was unfaithful to his partner and they ended up getting back together but did it last no. Love that is broken up by infidelity can never truly be as special as loyal love. There is a difference between physical cheating and just talking to other people flirting. But the physical cheating is impossible to forgive and trust me on this one I tried to forgive. Love is so special because you meet someone who literally changes your whole perspective on the world. I have met my soulmate and we have struggled but at the end of the day love prevails all trials and my love was tested at extreme lengths. Truly Shaylabobala

Where to buy the best Christmas gifts

Shayla Bobala

I’d say you got lots of options but some are more affordable and if you want someone to have a luxury gift well then price is no object. Small gifts are best found at Walmart they have a wide range of gift baskets, chocolate, and hygiene bundles. As well as every gift card you could imagine. Medium gifts are best found at Costco they’re larger gift baskets and things found bulk that are convenient. You can’t also find a good range at superstore. There are really cool gifts there too. Large gifts are found best at Apple store, Lulu Lemon and Costco has Membership you could gift. You could also find big gifts at Costco too in the electronics or vacuum or Vitamix. Also you could find good gifts at Best Buy Luxury gifts can be found at Gucci, Sephora, Rolex, Tiffany’s Jewellers or any jewellery store I’m sure no matter where you go any one will be excited for a lovely gift from these stores. Truly Shaylabobala

Fortnite New Update

Shayla Bobala

I have been playing Fortnite since season 7 and it has become a game that has changed my life. I really think that it’s for everyone. It so visually appealing. It also very beautiful with the real life game board with the cartoon realism. It has inspired my partner and I to plan to make a game of our own. Not gonna give details but it’s gonna be awesome. It’s something that’s never been done before. Honestly Fortnite has been a major competitor in gaming since launching and the one thing it has going for it is it’s ability to adapt. Let its players build there own board. I think that if you want to build a game you have to really be picky about how you want it to look. Fortnite is the best game out there currently and I truly believe that big things are coming in the world of gaming this next year. Truly Shaylabobala

My Favourite Foods & Local Restaurants

Shayla Bobala

Let’s start off by saying that I am a foodie. I enjoy the finest foods and love them greatly. I’m going to share the best place to eat in Edmonton. Boston Pizza – Best Nachos & Memphis Burger, fries and gravy also bandera bread is phenomenal Yang Ming Buffet – Best Chinese restaurant with prime rib, crab and large ice cream bar. River Cree Casino Buffet & Bar – Best Prime Rib, crab and nacho and poutine bar, as well as best ice cream station. They also have amazing service with pop not being extra. The Keg – All of them have amazing Steak & Lobster, they also have fantastic appetizers. The mushroom Neptune and Caesar salads are so yummy. Red Lobster – Ultimate Feast, Clam Chowder, Caesar Salad, Shrimp linguini Alfredo, and try the alotta callada Joey – Great service, fresh water and best ribs and Buddha bowls in town Joeys Seafood Imporium – Best Shrimp & Fish Tacos Ever Those are my all time picks for restaurants in the city one that’s good but has okay service is royal buffet carvery only on the south and east side. Truly Shaylabobala

YouTube Tips For 30K Subscribers

Shayla Bobala

Some of you are already building on your platforms I hope you use these to maximize growth. Truly Shaylabobala

Puzzles

Shayla Bobala

Have our generation stopped seeing the value in the mind of puzzle Making. I love doing puzzles for a challenging fun time I think that it’s important to focus your mind and it helps memory. I’m the type that will sit for 12 hour doing a puzzle if it means I will get it done. I don’t like leaving things undone. I also love doing word search puzzles cause they also trick the mind. I am glad that I have had a lot of time to talk with a friend about our problems while doing puzzles. My old friend Louise really helped guide me into adulthood. She taught me never to settle and don’t accept physical violence in relationships. She also taught me not to let a guy lead me on. She also ate a lot of liver which was really gross so that’s a thing. I worked with her at Esso. She was a dear friend. She really had a tough life and ended up working there until her son offered to take care of her. I’m really glad her life got better. It’s important to learn from the older generation mistakes so we don’t repeat them. Truly Shaylabobala

YouTube Tips

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